Flatlining.

Since graduating 3 weeks ago from my Masters, I have been in some kind of a plateau state - in both the academic sense and in general. Since I'm so used to my academic world dictating my life for the past couple of years (e.g. I had no reservations of packing my bags and moving to New York for school 2 years ago, besides me being certain it was under God's direction) I now am, for the lack of a better word, at utter lost.

Call it a quarter-life crisis, or whatever else they call it these days. There are some nights I feel like giving up Psychology altogether, and going into Music like I had originally wanted. Then there are some where I feel like pressing on and bearing through this flat-line stage - I know it will pass. I do miss the comfort of college, having assignments to do and doing them well, having a schedule all laid out for me but hey this is God telling me to rely on him one day at a time, and stop relying on my humanly strength.And with God on my side, what do I have to fear? 


Deciding the next big stage in life is not an easy feat, but it isn't impossible either if we submit to what God intends for us to do. I know not everyone goes through this plateau state, there are some who are blessed in already knowing what comes next. But that isn't the point either, if God wills this for me then I will go through it and come out of it loving Him all the more. 

Is this goodbye?

My stint in New York may be coming to an end, as soon as a month from now. And I already miss it. Two years ago I wouldn't have but I've come to appreciate it of late.

The Hunger Pains.

"Eat me, I'm delicious," says the Kebab.

Everytime after finishing my dance classes, I get ravenous. I'd gobble food up like an ogre. Today I was just putting food down my throat at 11.30pm at night (that's when the classes end) - hotdogs, kebabs, pringles, sugary drinks............. Then again, I'm not one to diet. I hate dieting and I just eat whatever I want, whenever I want like a boss.

Maybe I ought to check up on my seemingly bottomless stummy.

Doppelgangers

Ever had that moment when you see someone, but you're not sure if it is them or not, so you don't say anything and neither do they? You catch them looking at you, and you do your own double takes, but at the end of the night you're so glad you kept your mouth shut because IT'S NOT THEM AFTER ALL.

Phew.

On a good day

I eat breakfast - hey it's easy to forget
I finish my homework - well it's not so fun doing
I crack a few jokes - takes effort in being sociable
I wash the dishes - not my favorite thing to do
I tidy up my dance choreography
I feel close to God
And I eat 3 slices of cheesecake.

Call me crazy.

I'm on a crazy streak lately, maybe it's all bottled up inside and I just need to let it come out and play once in a while! I got this gorgeous blue clip on hair extension. Just one piece. Looks good against my dyed jet black hair, so I think anyway. It's clip in, so no commitments. Sephora has other colors but I only like the blue one, the others are a little overboard for me (and you're probably thinking "like this isn't overboard enough"). But really, this really isn't THAT crazy. I've had real extensions before, the kind that is glued to my hair. This is nothing :)

Swing Dancing

First time I swing danced with strangers today.
First time I swing danced at all.
How was it?
Let's just say I do better at hip hop.