Houdini.

This song by Foster the People describes almost everything I'm feeling right now. It's a jumble but ends on a hopeful note. Here are the stanzas I likeys.

"Got shackles on, my words are tied  
Fear can make you compromise  
Fast enough it's hard to hide  
Sometimes I want to disappear

When I feel kinda bad and I'm all distressed  
Pass it off on a better day  
Well you got whatcha want whatcha never knew  
Perfect gift from me to you

Can't stand while I disappear  

Run around before i'm filled with fear  

Like a glue cause my life is filled with red

Yeah you're undecided  

Yeah I just want to leave it  

Yeah I'm gonna wanna runaway

Focus on your ability

Focus on your ability  

Now focus on your ability 

 Focus on your ability

Gain again what they want to steal  

Gain again what they want to steal  

Gonna gain again what they want to steal  

Gain again what they want to steal"