The Compression Claustrophobia: Life Unabbreviated

I dislike Compressing events from the year into lessons or take-home-notes like many do. I prefer to take it in just as it is, because

1) It kinda doesn't work for me, I'll probably forget it anyway.
2) Sure I could write it down so I won't forget it but I'm hardly the diary-kind of person. I was when younger but got into a lot of trouble when nosy people read it. Don't worry it was nothing outrageous, just teen stuff. So now I write in riddles.
3) Summarizing mitigates a lot of things. It also makes me somewhat claustrophobic.
4) I prefer to view Time as a continuum as physicists do (aka there is no such thing is past, present and future). Just Time continuously with no beginning and end.

I could Reflect instead. Yes, that's what I'll do. If I remember to.

Happy 2012. It's going to be a better year.

Carry me

I'm just a dead girl.

Lying on the carpet
Can't find a heartbeat

Can you find a beat inside of me?
Any pulse?
Getting worse?
Any pulse?
Getting worse?

-Jars of Clay

All I want for Christmas

is to give my love away.

Relax, it's just a song. Here's some of the lyrics, though I changed one single word. Seemed more apt. I had a different idea of what Christmas was going to be like this year, but apparently that's not gonna happen. Instead, I'll be spending it on a plane, all day.

"Snow falls slow in the moonlight
Children merrily play
Off in the distance they're singing
Choirs of carolers sway
Every front yard is gleaming
Plastic santas and sleighs

Alas you didn't appear on my doorstep
The mistletoe's waited all day
All that I want for christmas
Is to give my love away."

Houdini.

This song by Foster the People describes almost everything I'm feeling right now. It's a jumble but ends on a hopeful note. Here are the stanzas I likeys.

"Got shackles on, my words are tied  
Fear can make you compromise  
Fast enough it's hard to hide  
Sometimes I want to disappear

When I feel kinda bad and I'm all distressed  
Pass it off on a better day  
Well you got whatcha want whatcha never knew  
Perfect gift from me to you

Can't stand while I disappear  

Run around before i'm filled with fear  

Like a glue cause my life is filled with red

Yeah you're undecided  

Yeah I just want to leave it  

Yeah I'm gonna wanna runaway

Focus on your ability

Focus on your ability  

Now focus on your ability 

 Focus on your ability

Gain again what they want to steal  

Gain again what they want to steal  

Gonna gain again what they want to steal  

Gain again what they want to steal"

Okay I do think Angry Birds is cute and all, but

this is... unexpected.

Uzi

Today I learnt that there's such a word.

Pobody's nerfect.

i like that you're awkward
since it makes me look less awkward