Flatlining.

Since graduating 3 weeks ago from my Masters, I have been in some kind of a plateau state - in both the academic sense and in general. Since I'm so used to my academic world dictating my life for the past couple of years (e.g. I had no reservations of packing my bags and moving to New York for school 2 years ago, besides me being certain it was under God's direction) I now am, for the lack of a better word, at utter lost.

Call it a quarter-life crisis, or whatever else they call it these days. There are some nights I feel like giving up Psychology altogether, and going into Music like I had originally wanted. Then there are some where I feel like pressing on and bearing through this flat-line stage - I know it will pass. I do miss the comfort of college, having assignments to do and doing them well, having a schedule all laid out for me but hey this is God telling me to rely on him one day at a time, and stop relying on my humanly strength.And with God on my side, what do I have to fear? 


Deciding the next big stage in life is not an easy feat, but it isn't impossible either if we submit to what God intends for us to do. I know not everyone goes through this plateau state, there are some who are blessed in already knowing what comes next. But that isn't the point either, if God wills this for me then I will go through it and come out of it loving Him all the more. 

Is this goodbye?

My stint in New York may be coming to an end, as soon as a month from now. And I already miss it. Two years ago I wouldn't have but I've come to appreciate it of late.